Weigh-In #12

Salam and welcome to the Twelfth Weigh in!

Begining: 108 kilos | 240 lbs

Weigh in: 78 kilos | 173 lbs

Loss of: 4 kilos | 9 lbs

Total Loss: 30 kilos | 66.6 lbs

Goal of: 70 kilos | 155 lbs

This past month of May has been the best ever!  It took sooo long to get down to below 80 and then it fluctuated for days at 79.5 and 80 kilos. Ugh! Finally the day of the weigh in it plopped down to 78!!! WOO HOOO!!!  OMG I can’t believe I’ve gotten this far and it hasn’t really been that hard looking back at it.  It seems loosing weight is more about what you eat and how you eat it than constant exercize.  I’m still afraid that If i incorporate too much exersize I’ll burn out and then stop loosing weight but the time has come for me to get seriously sweaty.  I took a fast walk up to the mall the other day and it was 8:30pm at night and still so hot that when I got there the sweat was dripping down my back and seeping through my Abaya.  I had to go directly to the ice rink area to cool off.  Unfortionatly my face has a natural red hue and when i exersize it turns bright red so only Allah knew what people were thinking.  i cooled off quickly and luckily not smelly lol.  It was great though.

It has become obvisou that all dieting with little exercize has a bg detrement to the body.  My skin is sagging and not looking so great in it’s deflated baloon shape.  (dare I say it almost looked better with the fat in it?) But Hubby agrees that I’m looking better and he’s happy! And I’m super happy.  I look in the mirror now and I can see a body really forming now.  i can see with a little toning how I might actaully get to a really nice shape someday.  So here’s to reaching the 75 mark by the next month and insha’Allah more!  I really can’t beleive I’ve gotten this low!  I had a friend long agowho couldn’t get past 83 kilos and I thought wow I’ll never be as thin as her, NOW I AM and it doesn’t feel like it yet but I am there.  The scales are not lying!  Wow I’m so Thrilled I might even go work up a sweat tonight.

Thanks for those that are reading this and wishing me well and I wish all of you well too and I hope that my words inspire you to help yourselves.  Never accept anything less than your best.  I can’t beleive I used to accept and resign myself to being overweight “forever”. 

Skipping…no mary-mack-mack-mack here

Remember those fun jump roping songs? I used to love them and have dozens memorized while my friends in school and I jump-roped.

The other day I bought my 3yrs old daughter a jump rope and finally we got to play with it at the park.  My husband gave it a go but had trouble in the grass.  My daughter had seen on tv how it was supposed to be done and got frustrated she couldn’t do the same.  So she uses it to tie poeple up and to play tug-o-war.  At home I picked it up one afternoon but felt self concious to try it.  Heaving my large body up and down over a rope wasn’t my idea of a stylish way to loose weight.  I ddn’t even think it was healthy for someone my size to try and get their feet and knees to support that kind of jumping trauma.  Would my back break? I’ve had back problems before and this was not something I want to encounter again.  Would my husband be disgusted by my wobbily (jelloey, my husband likes to call it) body being catapulted? Would I fall on my face in front of my daughter?  WOuld I trip and fall on my baby? 

I took matters to the bedroom to try it out in peace.  I set up the rope behind me and prepared my body mentally for any accident to befall it.  I took a gentle swing and smoothly jumped over it with two feet.  I wont lie it did hurt.  My body is not used to supporting itself in the air and then having to catch it when it falls.  But I did it. I sset up again and took another more forceful swing and skipped so that only one foot goes over the rop first and then lands and the back leg lifts for the follow through.  There! That was much more easy on the body. So I tried a few good 5-10 skips before my daughter and hubby realized what the sound of the rope was… so suddenly they pop up and I stop self-conciously.  Hubby proceeds to tell me quite possitively that he doesn’t mind seeing my jello wiggling as long as it’s wiggling for sports.  So feeling happier with my back-handed compliment I start skipping in front of him and he’s quite impressed I can do so well.  I DID use to skip rope everyday durring recess and at home for like 2 years when i was 6-8. I loved it then and I loved it now. It felt exhilarating being able to do so well after so long that I made the mistake of getting cocky and did a highwire (where the rope doesn’t touch the florr and you have to jump higher to get over it) and suceeded and then got more cocky and did a crossover (where you cross your hands at the elbows and jump through the loop) but this wasn’t the bendable kinda rope i had as a kid and it didn’t twist fast enough and I stepped on it and tripped and fell over onto the bed and almost sprained my ankle.  I took a breather and warned myself that Allah put me back in my place with that last one.  Obvisouly I’m not 7 years old anymore. Still Hubby was proud and I was happy to be able to do it again.  He made me promise to do it daily and I happily did.  I tried it next on this spongy mat I got for the living room so my baby with his new cruising abilities wouldn’t fall and hit his hed on the tile.  It was much easier on my body and feet (ah my poor feet after that hard tile) and it was easier to jump.  So I put it away for that day.

The next day I took it out and played with my daughter and then started exercizing.  It felt great to do jumps and it certainly works out your whole body.  I anxiously watched the clock instead of singing jumping songs but perhaps next time I’ll sing a little diddy. After an hour of good all around exercizing I was indeed THE SWEATY HIJAB and when hubby got home I handed over the kids and took a relaxing shower.  Alhamdulillah.

Lean, Mean, Eating Machine…

Our Bodies that is…..

Finally I’ve taken the time to tell you how I do it.  How this fat has melted away:

What with all the diet books, videos, websites, clubs, and organizations people certainly have the idea that they need to “diet” in order to loose weight.  Look at my past pages where each month I have lost minimum 2 kilos all without exercize (excpet an occassional walk up to the mall).  What diet are you on? People ask me expecting to hear some new fad that will work wonders for them. I smile my “I have a secret” smile and then start explaining my system. Their eager smiles slowly drop and turn into looks of increadulousness. She’s silly, this can’t really be what’s making her loose so much weight. Only when I tell them I got it from a very good “bestsellers” book do they take me seriously.
  The book is (drumroll please)…….
“I Can Make You THIN” by Paul McKenna

In it he gives you 4 basic GOLDEN RULES to follow. Each Golden rule is followed with advise about how and why to implement the rule and some science behind it. Easy to read and understand.
  If you follow these four rules you are sure to loose weight and eventually be a sucess story -like me, though I never actaully imagined being one.
   For those that want to do better or loose weight faster and loose bad things like low self esteem, emotional eating, cravings, lethargy, slow metabolism etc… can read the sections that help you get over these things and it does work.  You are motivated and have more energy and best of all you’re really NOT thinking of food all day.
    You don’t need a great imagination like mine to do this either.  Everyone has regular imagination use -imagine what the front of your house’s door looks like.  That’s the only teqnique you need to do this book. A basic imagination and the ability to read. Those with super imaginations like mine will just do it with higher intensity.
     So for the most part I’ve really been following these rules and subhan’Allah they’ve worked and here I am more than 20 kilos lighter and it really wasn’t hard.
     I’d really like to be able to just write everything he wrote in his book down for you all to benefit but maybe that’s a copywrite no-no and I might get sued. So here are just the four Golden Rules that I tell anyone when they ask me what I do to loose weight.

*1. Eat whenever you are hungry.
    So that means just what it says. ANytime you feel hungry go ahead and eat something. By starving or limiting your body’s intake you’re sending it into survival mode and it will store fat not get rid of it which is why diets don’t work.
*2. Eat what you want, never what you think you ‘should’.
    We obsess about food and what are no-nos to eat but when we release ourselves from the food police.  We are less obsessed about it and can then eat things like broccoli or cake without having a stigma attatched to it. This is the hardest part to convince friends about because of all the media about bad foods and good foods.  But eventaully you will gravitate naturally to good foods and avoid bad foods just because you followed Rule 1 and aren’t limiting yourself.  THis one feels great that I can just go have a slice of cake and not feel bad because when you’re incorporating all the 4 golden rules at the same time it just works.
*3. Eat consciously and enjoy every mouthful.
    This one I have trouble doing but the total point of it is to break down the food better to digest better AND to eat less overall because you’re listening to your body’s signs of full and hungry. But it’s nice when you do follow it more becuase it makes your food taste better than ever. In fact this is the main step to follow if you can’t follow 4 rules and only want one rule.
*4. Stop when you think you’re full.
    By following the above steps you will literally be in tune with your body’s needs and wont be able to overeat. Don’t feel the need to clean the whole plate off.  Stop about half way and assess yourself on the hunger scale.  If your satisfied or full then just stop and save the rest of the food for later (because it is not cool-and against the sunnah- to just throw food that is edible).
*5. ok so Mr. Paul McKenna didn’t have a 5 but I’m adding it as a bonus: Drink lots of water throughout the day.
    Water helps break food down and aids in hydration and digestion and to keep our bodies running effeciently. Plus most of the time we are hungry and eat and then still feel hungry is because we are really thirsty in the first place.  Assess you hunger and decide if you’re hungry first or thirsty and either way drink a glass of water FIRST then if your still hungry follow the above rules.

So that is about all I do. Exercize to speed things up but only do what you naturally enjoy doing.  You should try to just take about 2,000 more steps per week/day and that is all you have to do. (so my occassional walk when I’m not loosing down the scale helps things pick back up again)

I have a better Golden Rule that is easy to remember though:
Chew More, Eat Less, Walk More.  That’s all that you have to do to loose weight.  You already knew this though deep inside. The tricky part for most poeple is leanring how to motivate themselves to do this and Paul McKenna does a great job.  I really reccommend to buy this book.  I used this advice durring my pregnancy and was able to maintain an even weight.  Even as the baby grew my weight remained good. With my first baby I ballooned up.  I almost didn’t buy this book thinking it was just another fad and i couldn’t losoe weight while preg anyways so why waste the money but then something jsut told me to buy it and I did and loved it and it comes with a meditation CD for self esteem/motivation too so it’s worth the buy.
Thank You Paul McKenna!

AIM LOW…..

Many people aim really high when they try to loose weight.  They have it in their head that they need to change their whole life around to loose weight.  Ohhh no i said the C word! CHANGE.  It can be a scary word for people stuck in their ways.  Entrenched in their habits.  It’s hard for some people to take a chance and risk the posability that their life will change when they start to loose weight.  It’s scary to them to think that by their life changing so will their personality and goals and whole “master plan”.  Some people don’t feel comfortable stepping outside the box.  They love the security of the four walls blocking the view, trapping them, ensuring their daily routine…. these same people when forced out of the box (for example because the doc says if you don’t loose weight you will die soon) tend to over aim when setting goals.  They sign up for expensive gyms vowing to go to it everyday maybe twice a day, throwing all junk food away and buying only the latest healthy foods, weigh-in regularly and expect to see rapid weight loss…. then a week or month down the line the whole new lifestyle is hard to maintain so soon old habits return… chips and soda infiltrate the cabinets and fridge…that special meeting at the kid’s school interupted your workout routine…. you miss a morning weigh-in… or the scale doesn’t move fast enough…   all of these leads to a meltdown of loosing weight AND depression that you will never be able to change so you curl up and slink your way back into your box and build your walls higher.

Many of you are nodding your heads that this has happened to you.  Where’s the flaw what did I do wrong you may ask.  You aimed too high.

To start something new you do need enthusiasm and motivation but you also need realistic goals to set for yourself! You can’t start this whole regimen thinking in one month you will loose 10 lbs! Especailly when your sluggish body is used to it’s style and habits too.  Start yourself slow by slowly incorporating good habits and slowly weeding out the bad foods and drinks.  Replace each bad thing with a good alternative so everytime you want that bad thing you have something healthy to stuff your mouth with.  LIke I for example always want chocolate! Yet I got a large bag of carrots and told myself when I wander to the fridge for chocolate just pick up the carrot and munch away, as many carrots as you please. Eventaully I dropped most of my chocolate cravings.  I say most because I believe in a treat now and then as long as you realize it is a treat and you’re not cheating yourself by treating yourself too often.

Exercise once in a morning and the next day maybe you don’t and that’s ok. Maybe the next day you’ll feel motivated by your previous workout to work out again the day after that. You don’t need to kick the ball out of the park you just have to get it moving slowly to start loosing weight.  ANything you do towards your goal of loosing weight is a good thing and if you do nothing that is ok too and you just have to re-motivate yourself.  Set small conquorable goals.  I started out with a goal of loosing 10 kilos in 10 months. So if by the end of the month I lost one kilo I forced myself to be happy with that small advantage, hey a kilo is a kilo! I knew I could do better than that and I strive to do better than that but I don’t want to burn myself out and not complete looosing weight. After the first month when I lost 2 kilos I realized that would get me to my goal in half the time so I re made my goal to every month loose two kilos and that has worked really well for me.  After many months I have been able to see a steady drop.  Sure it looks slow on a graph or chart (which i do keep) but it does keep dropping without going up again.  When I feel extra motivated I try for 3 kilos a month or GASP! 4 kilos! When i told my hubby maybe this month I will try for three kilos he scoffed at me! Whoa one more kilo wow don’t rush things he mocked.  I gave him my “I’m smarter than you” look and said haven’t I lost so much weight so far and kept it off? If I aim low I can’t fail.

HEAR THAT? AIM LOW = NO FAIL

 

again: A I M  L O W  =  N O  F A I L !!!!

So by aiming low you set yourself up to achieve small but managable goals.  This works in nearly every area of life not just weight loss when you want to step out of your box.

When I converted to Islam it was daunting the rules one has to follow and how much you have to change in your life.  But I felt the pull and truth of Islam and that kept me motivated to continue.  Sure the first time I aimed too high.  I expected to be the perfect Muslim right away. Hijab, no alcohol, praying etc… but I failed why? I aimed REALLY too high… it takes a lot of small peronal obsticales to change so radically. I had to start with a small hedband scarf and work up to the full hijab.  I had to learn small sections of the prayers before ebing able to do them once then up to 5 times a day.  I had to realize the stupidity of drinking alcohol and it’s effect on me (which is bad effect..) [thanks friends for teaching me that one]………… 

So again to step out of the box: AIM LOW = NO FAIL

Insha’Allah! and Good Luck to you all in your goals and weight loss!

Weigh In #10!

Salam and welcome to the Tenth Weigh in!

Begining: 108 kilos | 240 lbs

Weigh in: 84 kilos | 186 lbs

Loss of: 4 kilos | 9 lbs

Total Loss: 24 kilos | 53 lbs

Goal of: 70 kilos | 155 lbs

March was very trying because for the first two weeks me and my family were sick with flu.  After that it was very hard to get under the 85 and stay under it.  Everyday it would fluctuate wildly and finally I got it under to the 84! I admit still I havn’t gotten sweaty but this month of April I’m going to have to rock hard to stay on track! It’s getting harder and harder to loose the weigh now just by eating habits alone.  I’m sure I can do it and I won’t give up though.

Emotional Eating

We all have those horrible days where everything goes wrong and we run for the fridge/cubords looking for that sweetness to make us feel better.

Yesterday was that day when I got into an argument with my hubby. Soon my sad feet wandered to the kitchen searching in vain for sweets to melt the hurt. My fridge is empty and my cuboards bare of anything. I needed to go shopping soon but if I go grocery shopping in this mood i’ll be in trouble with the diet. I’ll give in to the candy isle and weigh 100kilos. So I kept drinking water everytime I wandered to the kitchen. It was NOT satisfying my sweet need. But it was saving my diet from emotional abuse. This taught me an important lesson…. I should not keep sweets stashed anywhere or I’ll be in trouble when it comes to emotions.
Today’s been better and I’m glad I left off the candy but last night hubby brought food for us and it was Chicken and rice and at first I resisted just becuase I was mad at him still and didn’t want to acknowledge that he was being nice. Then after he slept I served it to my daughter and since I hadn’t given into sweets, my nose ticked, my tounge twitched at the alluring aroma of the chicken and I weakly gave in to a plate full of chiken and rice, with laban (yogurt plain), and fiery hot salsa all mixed together. I felt better emotion wise but I was angry at myself kilo wise because I felt tomorrow I would have hit the next kilo down if I hadn’t eaten. SO we have to take the Highs with the Lows and keep striving. Even though I messed up still at least I messed up nutritionally better than a plate full of coconut cookies.

Today I didn’t go down the extra kilo but there is still to the end of the month! Which is why I only weigh myself “officially” monthly to allow for the give and take of the month. Otherwise I weigh myself multiple times a day just to see how the weight fluctuates and how my body feels acordingly so I know in the future just by feeling, how much weight I should be loosing.
It may be a weird system but it’s my system and I like it. Even when the scale goes up I still look at the numbers down to imagine how it will be when the scale says lower and I look to the higher numbers to remeber when I felt like the number I’m at now was imposible to reach.
The glass is always half full.

–Oh and I’m not mad at him anymore…

Zippers

I’ve had the same clothes for a long time now. When I first went to Lebanon I brought only the clothes that were modest and flattered my figure (which weren’t many). Once there I got two new outfits, a mess of long house abayas, an outside abaya, and a bunch of hijabs. Over the years I’ve gotten more outside abayas, and when I went to USA I got a whole mess of new skirts and pants and such.
After I came back to Lebanon from my visit to USA I was pregnant with my second baby. All these nice pants and skirts slowly began being stretched (since I knew it was useless to buy new maternity clothes) and many pants lost the battle of the baby-bulge and popped their zippers or blew out the seams on the butt. Even my skirts with zippers I could only wear them with the zippers open and eventaully under the baby bump. After all this weight loss I’ve been slowly seeing how many skirts I can zip up and so far not many of the tighter ones.
Until yesterday! I pulled on my beautiful black, with big blue and brown flowers, skirt and winced as I zipped it up in the back and gave a sigh of relief as it zipped cleanly and it didn’t hurt to breathe. It fits very snuggly around the middle I admit, but at least it zips! It’s encouraging me to really keep going and work on every kilo seriously.
-Maybe one day I’ll actaully get around to sewing back up the seams of the blow out pants and look better than before in them too.